I am an emotional wreck today if it rains im totally going to cry out of the blue. If something bad happened at school today im going to sit down and cry yes its embarassing, pms is the worst. For boy pls be gr8ful u r not a girl
Okay Im trying to start a scrapbook of all the damn things I did with my life but I think I just started losing all my shit that I want to stick on to that scrap book and im a super lazy person when it comes to decorating. I mean sometimes I make pretty good stuff but most of the time im just like, uhmmm let’s stick some lettuce on this page, yea that would look good. But yea, I havent done a single page on my “scrapbook” and I dont know how to start. Im just gonna do it anyway I want it.
ALSO! HEY!!! IM BACK TO SCHOOL.
my first day of school was nerve wracking good thing I am classmates with Leah. I know Ive been really nice to her for the past 3years and she helped me a lot with all the handouts and catching up and all. I love her already.
I havent finished my practicum report yet. I dont have my Evaluation form and my hours worked sheet. I am fucked. I know that. but hey—— I guess I’ll just have to deal with that. If they fail me on practicum then good. I guess I failed. I guess I fucked up. .. good. let me do it again.
about dota. Ive become really really bad at it.
I think I won 2 out of 30 matches. which is really bad :(
I still havent had the chance to meet up with my friends yet ever since I got here and it’s really sad. I kind of hate myself rn because I dont really make the time. Plus im waiting until I shed all these pounds I gained in the US before I let them see me. because im telling you, I look gross.
My hair is gross, my skin is gross plus im really fat right now. Fat in a KAT way. im not even 60 pounds yet. but ehh ughh.. just UH
Hellsyeahh baby das wataym talkin bout i miss ya so muchh ya like so expensive in the US like srsly hahae !!
Get over me Kalen.
just give it a try.
focus on loving Chris and giving him all you got.
stop bothering me :D
Yes its perfectly okay for me to do all those things because im not hurting anyone. Except maybe Alev, but he brought that to himself, we agreed to a friends with benefits kind of thing. And damn whats wrong with being in love ? The only boy i flirt with at lochness is James cuz hes the only one old enough and not gay. We never got farther than a “hi” and “hello” though.
Gosh. Why are you still mad and why are you still in my blog? Are you that jealous or do you secretly want to be friends with me? Huhh?. I have plenty of friends already thanks very much,
cuz she goes around messing with my guy friends and keeps lying to Chris.. thats not okay.
im happy for chris i hope he’s back to his normal happy self.
im sad for kalen cuz my friends told me about the moolah she spent for boys who dont care about her.
i hope they marry and have 5 kids to be honest.
in the mean time. im here playing my computer games and giving absolutely zero fucks about what they do with their lives.
Darling :( if i was a whore i wouldnt be sleeping alone for so long :((
Im not in a great shape to send nudes hahaha :(
I havent washed my hair in three days and its so greasy. HA HA HA HA HA I AM REALLY GROSS STAY AWAY FROM ME. I WILL EAT YOUR SOUL AND SCRUB IT ON MY GREASY HAIR.
I honestly think I am going insane. I dont know what to do with myself. TOO MANY THINGS HAPPENED and I am just here sitting and staring at nothing. I CANT BELIEVE more than 3 months has passed. I part of me wants to take it all back and spend my summer at home, playing dota with all of my online friends. Occasionally going out to drink with my boy buds and having a normal on the job training at the PH.
I am so stupid. Feelings are so stupid. Before I came here, I was complete. I was so sure of myself and I needed NOTHING! I brought 5 shirts and 2 pants and I was READY… now that I am leaving I have 147328 shirts and 6pants but I feel really… reallly empty.
I met this one boy and I feel like some part of me has been stolen and he wont give it back so I just have to live without it until my body grows it back again. Like a lizard growing back a tail.
And I met all these amazing friends that I wish I could all just live with for the rest of my life. Bu im really not so sure about that because eventually… things will start to suck. lmfao. I am SO GLAD I AM OUT OF THERE. I just really have to tell myself that its a good thing youre not there anymore Kat because you hate working at that stupid rollercoaster because it is super stupid they make you do stupid stuff like “talk to people”. You are not that kind of girl Kat. You like rooms, and being alone in them.
but in reality i get this crippling sadness whenever I see anything related to that stupid rollercoaster.
and I still think about that boy 324623409 times a day.
I went to mountain today. I was so happy to discover that there are so many things more beautiful than your smile. Trees…