dapak is this!!!! hahahaa
HI DRU RINJER ♥ HAHAHAHA I WUV U
|—||Beth Ditto (via floranymph)|
Ok so today started off really crappy because of the stupid dream I had. Then I tried cheering myself up by getting active and doing shit. So i paid for my plane ticket … that didnt cheer me up cuz a lot of money has been spent and actually it’s tearing me up. LOL jk
I went to school and I tried writing on my journal but I only have 10 minutes until class starts so all i wrote was some lyrics from this Bob Dylan song that I have been LSS-ed on and a short “omg i told my bestfriend i am fallin in love with him” …..
sooo moving on that was totes uncool… I discovered I lost my Statement of Account plus I still have 0 final exams taken. I mean HALLOOO day 1 of hell week and I have accomplished only like 2% of what I need to accomplish. Im gonna go kuhhhreeyyyyzii!. And So I ate a big ass corn.
Its taking all of my energy to resist stress eating but just a while ago I ate tilapia huhu; fish fruits and vegies all taste so good to me right now. @_@ how am I even doing this.
well.. so much for that. my day ended well because of funny youtube videos and a quirky boy whose dog’s name is Nikko.
Magandang tanghali :D
not playing video games. :( there was a ukulele last night so i was just singing emotional bob dylan, nevershoutnever and SoKo.
fun.. Im starting to melt the rocks in my heart via music and its painful and I dont like it . HAHAHAHA BACK TO DOTA2!
Im not ur girl im not his girl im not anyones girl cuz im ugly and i dont deserve to be anyones girl let me just stay home with my video games leave me alone
(the kind my mother
grew up in)
hell to heat and cool
and faulty in the wiring
and though it’s nice to look at
I have no business
inviting lovers in.
|—||Clementine von Radics|
So I started socializing again.
I talk to my classmates now even if it’s nonsense. I tell my seatmate about me going to Colorado and how marijuana is legal there. Cant figure out if she’s amused about the factoid or by my talking to her. I also talked to Seiko, my half Japanese classmate. Turns out she likes the bands that I like too. Mostly the Pop Punk/Pop Rock ones. PTV, SWS, FOB.. the Likes. Also we share this intimate love for Japan (行く！行く！ニッポン！). Of course that’s because her dad is Japanese and im a weeb.
Well I really enjoyed talking to them and being friendly and smiling. It was fun. My professor even mentioned my name and called me “talkative”…. ohhh it feels good to be called talkative.
But that’s not where it ends. I also registered to UNLI ALL NETWORK and texted my buddies to stay in touch. I made lots of plans with friends before I go to the U.S. coz I feel like Im a lousy friend if I dont meet them before I leave. (:
Bumped to my grade school best friend on my way home and she invited me to watch her play tomorrow. She said she’ll put me in the guest list!!!! SO I GET A FREE PASS!!!! I like watching plays! Im gonna like tomorrow, I feel it in my vains. I invited Carlo to watch with me so it’s a win win win situation because *feeeeeeeeeeeeeels*. Gonna see 2 of my bestfriends tomorrow.
Finally getting my foot back to planet earth.. little by little…
Finally stepping away from DotA (also i feel like crying cuz I dont play as much anymore, but I feel a different kind of happy when I talk to people .. lmao dota u sucker of life. fuck fuck fuck)
Downloaded 2 new games for the pass week. Fairly old games but still gold. Anyway I hope I’ll be able to manage my time with finals coming…. Looks like I cant cuz im still blogging at 4am. but dude……. whatever. I can do this. I feel certain. I feel happy.
ive kissed boys before
some I loved, some I didnt
there’s this one boy that I enjoyed kissing a lot… He wasn’t actually a “good” kisser but I enjoyed kissing him anyway. There was nothing unique about him, it’s just that he let me kiss him when I want to and that’s what I needed at that time of my life.
there’s also this boy that I loved a lot. I loved him so much I swore to heaven and stuff like that blah shit blah. But I almost never kiss him. I guess it’s true that you can love someone without trying to make their body belong to you.
and there’s this boy not too long ago…
he tries too hard when he kisses me. It makes me feel bad for him.
I want your chubby man fingers touching and massaging my back. Yes I would like that very much. Thank you
So I was halfway through writing a paper at 3am in the morning and my mom is sleeping in the living room, idk, maybe she’s guarding me
but in all seriousness
this friend of mine who likes sending me picture of his dick decided that maybe.. JUST MAYBE, I needed a picture of his penis at this time of the night.. like maybe its crucial for me to see a picture of his penis. THAT MAYBE I WOULD JUST SUDDENLY TURN INTO A GIRL WITH NO GOALS BUT TO JACK THE PENIS OFF AND SAY “SENPAI IM GLAD I MADE U HAPPY”
soooooooooo the picture was in the tiny little chatbox along with 3 other open chatboxes on facebook. .. I was about to reply to him.. “send another pic and I mute you.”
My mom decided that maybe it’s the perfect time to take a peek at what I am actually doing. (which is partly doing my homework and mostly watching Pewdiepie playing Alice Madness Returns)
JUST MY LUCK
The window open is FACEBOOK
and all the chatboxes are OPEN
and I cant close it because my
decided that its the PERFECT TIME TO LAG
FUCK ITS LIKE THE UNIVERSE BETRAYED ME FOR 30 SECONDS OF MY LIFE
and I didnt know what to do so I panicked.
I panic-clicked to MS WORD and it open after about idk .. a lifetime
and i closed chrome and so everything vanished (including pewdiepie and 5 webpages of research)
and I was just staring there and afraid to look if my mom is still over my shoulder but she isnt anymore. maybe she retreated to bed after seeing the lucky penis. idontknow idontcare notsureiwannaknow
its her fault anyway for doubting me. I AM REALLY DOING MY HOMEWORK REALLY! EVEN IF I CANT GIVE ANY LESS SHIT ABOUT TOURISM SUSTAINABILITY . im squeeezing my brain here!
well…. i guess that’s it. accept , move on, tell her that pictures of dick over the internet is normal and acceptable and that “it happens”